How I wish you were here. I think of you all the time. Our Birthday's are coming up.I have decided not to celebrate my birthday this year. It will be too hard. I wish we were going to play tips. I am going to buy you something for your birthday and I hope you like it. I will never be whole again without you here. I still don't understand because we needed you here. I just want to hug you so tight right now. Please tell God to give you the chance to come and tell us your okay. I will always love you. by the way the boys are sleeping with their baby blankets you made them. It helps them feel closer to you.