I walked outside today and a cardinal was sitting on the fence. I hope you sent it. I am missing you more than ever. Nothing feels right anymore. I wish you could come to us and let us know what to do and if you are ok. I am having surgery in about a week so I am hoping you will be there holding my hand. You know how I get nervous about this stuff. Just let me know you are still with us and watching over the kids and dad. I love you and I miss you. Hugs and kisses.