Hi mom its been awhile since I've talked on here but you know I talk to you every day. I know you know about my job and you know i'm not to worried about it because I'm getting to spend more time with dad.Hanging out with dad helps me alot to deal with you not being here. I hope it helps him to. We all went to the farm and burnt a brush pile and the kids played in the snow. I miss you so much. Thanksgiving I was taking trevor to his mom's house and we was talking he said it's not the same without you being here. Then he said we won't get grandma's noodles. I got a lump in my throat like I do now. We cried and hugged then I had to go to see dad. Whitney and I fixed thanksgiving dinner at our house and before we ate we stopped and thought about you. It will never be the same without you. Well it's almost christmas and the only thing I want is to have you here. I hope the day goes quick because I don't think it will be much fun. I know what you would say (you had better make it fun for those kids) so I will for you. I was up last night and thinking why you had all the problems you had and you fought against all odds and won. Why would he take you from us. It doesn't seem fare... Anyways I guess i'll find out some day. You was the best mom every and I know I never told you that enough. You and dad are the greatest people I've ever known. I'll never forget you and my kids will never forget you either. I'll make sure of that. Mom I love you with all my heart. Hope you can give dad a sign at christmas. Love you always and forever Tim "MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM" miss you